today i went back to my pri school .
but didnt meet pri school teacher , only went eat and play basketball there .
first time they let us play there sia , :DD .
play with some pri school de student and , so same de out of school student .
after that went mac with pri school friend slacked then jiu went bukit batok basketball court .
start our game le .
played for few hour .
today de game quite good , hen hao wan .
the player very strong sia .

if somebody love you , they love the way you are .
they wont want you to change , maybe you will think for him or her .
i will to change but not all .
cos we love our love way the way they are , not the way after they way .

love the way you are , maybe you think you are not beautiful .
but to me you are , you are the most beautiful girl i have ever see before .

sigh , even that thing happen .
but i still want to answer it .
there no longer really got a reason why i am writing this but just to ask the question she last time asked me .
"i wasnt beautiful / chio why you like me" the question was something like this .
this post to answer you , even that you asked me no to text you anymore .

today went to gym to train .

its hard to forget what we want to forgot , what we should forget .
more and more pain everytime we remember .
but we cant tell , we only can keep it to ourself .
even it hurt more , we still keep it to ourself .
talk to someone maybe a good idea but wasnt the best idea .
everytime i enter her profile and see , pain come more and more .
but i couldnt stop myself from doing it , even i knew how hurtful it is .
someone once told me that its too early for me to enter this kind of game relationship .
i dont care about it that time , i dont understand why she tell me like this .
she say she regret bringing me in this game .
but i really dont understand it at all .
but now i slowly slowly understand what she mean .
but it already too late to know now , there no way but to continue .
not continue play but to find the someone who i should love .
maybe it will be long to find but maybe we should try wait .
10 year 20 year who know but when we find the one , dont let him/her go .
hold him/her tight and never let him/her go no matter what , as long as you think he/her are the one .
but let him/her go , when they never get the happiness .
let them go to find their happiness , hold on when we hold but also let go when we have to .
we have to try .
for our love one .

may the couples in the world last long .

love doesnt mean to get him or her .
love mean as long as the person u love is happy that all matter .
love wasnt a one side thing , it was 2 side .
if it was only a side de , one happy the other one not happy so what the point .
maybe we really want to have him or her but at the same time we have to think for him or her .
is she or he going to be happy with me .
and others kind of thing .
letting go was also a kind of way of love .
i dont wish to do so but for her , i will try to do it .
only for her .

letting you go is the only way i can love you , it may be a sided but its is still my only way to love you .

sigh , thing happen alot this year .
really wasnt my year sia , this .

yesterday where buy a basketball .
didnt really buy a ball really very exp de , only going 30 only .
but at least the ball is good for my basketball skill .
wont suddenly the ball fly to dont know who de face .
brought the basketball , and then went outside try .
when try , they tell me got girls watching i try the ball sia .
was like what the hell -.- .
not really a bad idea to buy a basketball for myself sia .
can train basketball , do others de thing .
plus something happened yesterday the ball can help me in some way .
so wasnt really wasting the money , i still have buy a basketball shoe for myself .
after my iphone 4g got the plan to buy one .
kena suspend to the next term le sia .
what the hell again sia .
sigh .

just reach home a hour ago .
wented for a long long walk .
did something in the early morning .
after that at home , using lappy while my mum packing to move house .
around 6 plus went out had dinner , long time didnt have dinner with her le .
so jiu pei her , after a short time of walk around with her jiu went back home le .
where change and meet with friend le .
walk from house to westmall , westmall to shuqun sec there and then went back westmall again .
last but not the least in from westmall back home .
reached home at around 1 plus am , normally if is this kind of time is already going ton outside le but this time didnt .

thing happen alot this year , how i wish it didnt happen and i can change it .
change to how it really should be , understanding die wasnt a solving way is more deadly than dont understand it . i really wish that i dont know anything .
i dont like myself to be like this , maybe alot of people wish to be someone like me . but all i can say is that they dont understand what it take to be someone like me . it wasnt so easy and no one will want to be , after they know the true .
being a human is so tiring but being someone who will understand thing easily is even more tiring . i really feel happy for those who dont know anything , those who dont need to think . smart people wasnt so good to be , while stupid people are .

today come post blog again .
wtf , that person go pour water on my di eating de place .
he looking forward to die is it .
wtf , he think he who .
no one going help him if he kena anything still want at there at big .
i just make a call jiu can find dao two time the people he can find still want act big .
we just dont wish to use this kind of force only , not that we dont have good to bully leh .
dont force us to use it hor , if u really force us to use it mean u really got one of ur leg on the coffin le .
today went back to shuqun to have cca but i just walk in jiu kena mr tang saw and send out .
wtf sia , T.T .
then jiu bobain went to eat le then try again .
this time surely can go in cos we saw him went to eat then all run in le . :DD .
hen hao wan , haha .
after that went to npcc to have cca .
then blahblahblah jiu end le .
after cca went home change starting dont want go out de but lion jio jiu go out le .
9 plus jiu walk back home le .

there a few thing u cant touch in my life .
1st is (her & my family) even that she still not mine but u better dont touch her .
2nd is gans .
3rd is my friend
if u touch this few thing then u are better be ready for trouble .

today hen hen hen suay .
morning i went to school but havent enter jiu saw mr tang .
send me home after awhile of talk . -.-"" .
went home do blahblah thing .
kena sweegeng shock sia , he call me when schooling .
ask me some question , cannot tell if not he going get into trouble .
then blahblah thing again .
after that waited for my di home .
wth , want to go out de but all my clothes havent even done washing .
after that went out , went bugis , imm and then westmall .
enter westmall time zone then my thing spoil .
T.T that thing cost me $20 de leh , and the most important is that i kind of like it de leh .
sigh . thing really didnt went the way i wanted it to be .
why do thing went into this way , this wasnt what i think , what i wanted .

from tmr onward jiu will go school everyday le .
at school guaiguai study after school jiu play dao siao .
sigh , my fun time going end le .
-.- walao , i forgot what i wanted to post just now le sia .

haha , noww then i know that i dont really have any friend at all sia .
sigh , i dont have any friend .
i have family but was like dont have also .
what the hell sia , i grow up to now so big .
then know this thing .
should i be laughing that i know it already or should i cry about it sia .
today on the way walking back home , i start thinking that do i really have any friend .

today at english calendar de 15/8 , this when my dad past away 5 year ago .
yesterday went to put my dad de ling wei at the temple .
after that went harbour front there take mrt back to jp .
saw xiao xiong at vivo city . :D .
meeted with friend then for awhile jiu went westmall .
meet others de friend le .
at westmall time zone saw my long time no see de friend .
dont know how to spell his name . >.< .
after that waited for my er jie to pass for money .
she lent from me again le sia .
after that went home .
i am banging the wall damn hard yesterday sia .
but i still cant let out the feeling of killing someone .
someday i surely will cant tahan de sia .
f**k .

today half way schooling was kena but mr tang .
call me go out , cut hair . -.- .
cut my sideburn only , dont want cut my fringe alot .
jiu cut it myself le .
after school , went talked with my relief mother tongue teacher .
he only going to stay for another one week only .
after that jiu going back le .
after that went to np le , after np went to cut my hair again le .
tmr going someone to do thing .
2 more day another year past again le .
so long without him le .

today wented sp (singapore poly) , pei my di there to work .
after that wented bugis , find topman shop but the shop dont have i want the clothes .
jiu went orchard de , then brought it le .
but very kelian is that the v shape is damn freaking long de .
long dao my chest there le .
dare to wear but like very weird , cos i dont have body shape to wear it .
nvm , now wear then also start training it also .
body shape here i come .
chiong ah .

finally come post blog again le .
yesterday got work sia .
tired tired , now still keep on yawning going sleep le later .
yesterday singapore birthday .
happy birthday singapore , even that that not my problem at all .
i not a singaporen anywhere .
nothing to post at all .
due to my lazy .
trying damn hard on study nowaday .

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